Let me talk about my mom. I've been critically ill for the past 5 days now and I know it's taken a huge toll on my mom too. She wakes up with me every 4 hours throughout the night to help me get some food and take medicine. She gets up practically hourly to check on my temperature. She has to constantly cook and think of things I can actually consume because my appetite sucks right now. Nobody can love me quite like she does. It's unbelievable to me how this woman has gone through all that she has and still has this selflessness in her. She doesn't care so much about luxuries for herself but always tries to make sure I have all I need and that I'll be able to enjoy a luxurious life in the future. She essentially gives up an annual five-figure dollar amount to stay home and tend to me and my brother and make sure that we don't end up in the wrong crowd or go down the wrong path. I'm not gonna lie, during my (many) years of teenage angst, my parents came across to me as overprotective, oppressive, and impossible to satisfy. Looking back now, I should've appreciated their discipline rather than let it frustrate me, because I don't know if I'd be half the person I am today without it. My mom always tried to remind me that friendships are..fickle. And of course, family is forever. You can suddenly love someone you never thought you would, and you can also hate someone you never thought you would. Momma's always right. And it seriously took me all of high school to realize that people talk. A lot, the annoying ones. I don't think anybody can deny saying something bad about someone they claim to be close to. And people can congratulate you to your face but behind your back they could try to undermine your worthiness of an achievement and even wish it was them instead. I'm just trying to be real rn about people and what I observed in high school, cause honestly if I could've just accepted that people will be people, I would've given a lot less craps about what people thought of me and how I could maintain friendships that were clearly fake af. Would've spent more time learning to love myself than let stupid people convince me what not to love about myself. This got off topic and quite deep but family is all you got for certain for always and I have never been more grateful for mine #toomanymeds #drugsmakingmeemo