Monday, April 25, 2016

why did i think i could be any better than i was before
no matter how hard i try, i'll always fall short
and alone
Im never going to be worthy enough for someone to want to be as patient as they need to be 
but I wanted so badly for this to be wrong
I needed it to be wrong
why do I even bother when I'm just a mass of shortcomings
how do I expect anyone to tolerate me when I'm struggling myself
yet I do, and I let myself hope that it would give me the strength to get better
but it always fails 
I always fail
I was given the talent to ruin things and not the skill to fix them
And I don't know how to defend myself anymore 

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

I swear there's something off with my water system 

12 things learned while 18

("at least 1 for each month" -my lovely boyfriend)
  • Some people come into your life solely for the purpose of teaching you to let go
  • It's okay to pull yourself from people who do you more harm than good
  • The comfort zone provides no room for growth
  • If not now, then when?
  • There's never really a right time, only the right motives
  • Cliche, but you truly do need to love and respect yourself before you expect anybody else to
  • It's not a crime to fall short of people's expectations; people will always expect too much
  • never believed in absolutes, like "never" or "always," but sometimes I think there's that one special person who can do a whole lot to your beliefs
  • Love really does come at unexpected times, but maybe because those are the times you're most capable of managing it well
  • Simplicity
  • Your true character shows through the ways you treat people whom you have no obligation to treat well
  • Actions may speak louder than words, but words are always there even when actions cannot be